Hmmm... today went to attend gan gan's r.o.m solemnisation.. hmmm.. the bride.. a.ka my god ma.. pretty.. lol.. den after dat we went kuishin bon to have lunch buffet.. wah.. nice.. hehez~! veri full..next time must go there eat again.. den after dat went marina square with thiong hwee kor.. hehez~! den had strawberry fondue.. den shopped at sasa.. after dat went home.. gan gan gave mi 100 bucks to shop... hehez~! only use 50 bucks.. another 50 return him.. den went home.. hehez~! den at nite dey came to the shop.. brought us some bean curd.. hehez~! yum yum.. now drinkin tom yam soup.. hehez~! goin to skool tml.. sianz.. haiz...
-Lulu

11:50 PM;
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Today took class photo with mri lim coz it's her last lesson with us.. for dis semester.. hmmm.. den tml goin back to dmn larz.. den dunno if i can catch the movie with thiong hwee kor kor or not.. hmmm.. coz tml god-pa's R.O.M date.. den i think i attendin lorz.. i've been waitin for the day since dunno when.. hahaz~! so excited.. den if goin back to dmn.. i think i goin back with thiong hwee kor, keng kee and kannan.. dunno who joinin us oso larz.. hahaz~! so bored...
-Lulu

10:48 PM;
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Wah.. meetin thiong hwee kor kor on wednesday.. kannan and keng kee joinin.. hehez~! go together mahz.. after dat goin for movies.. hmmm.. den today late for the car.. have to ma fan mama.. den reached skool at 8.15... den had BCA.. went help desk solve my laptop thingy.. den went off.. corrine they all pei mi awhile den they left.. they tired mahz.. so they went off first.. kekez~! den kannan and keng kee had dinner at my house.. hahaz~!so bored.. got skool tml.. haiz...
-Lulu

11:56 PM;
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2dae i go my doc's appointment. sux leh made mi wait for 30 mins. de previous appointment i went to was so punctual lor. 2deas was 2 05pm den wen my turn le alr arnd 2 35 le. but nvm. haha. cozde doctor prettypretty. was feeling abit sianz ah. but after seeing de doctor my day really light up le. waha.

after i picked up my medication i left NSC. thenwhile i walking to de bustop i saw a 21 coming le. but den sinlge deck de n alot of ppl so i decided to wait for a double deck n hoping for de new kind of double deck. my wish came true after abt 15 mins. got on de bus feeling happy tinking 'wah 2dae so heng ah. pretty doctor n got de bus i wanted'... i was dead wrong. y? coz de bus brokedown halfway sia. sux. i was jzua few stops away from kallang mrt where im gonna alight. argh!!! sianz.

got home arnd 5 le. my hopes of studying in de afternn ruined le. coz reached hm den slp. haha. jia lat ah. haven study. how? haha.

cya on wed

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Yea~! i spent $90 bucks, excludin the 10 bucks discount on puremilk things.. and i got my top.. mummy paid half, my aunt paid half.. hehez~! den anderson ice-cream veri nice.. they got sell fondue oso.. i wanna eat lehz.. tml goin skool.. awhile only.. den after dat should i go for movie?? hmmm...
-Lulu

10:29 PM;
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2dae went out with lulu mei. haha. finally 1 day where i can be happy n enjoy throughout this period of time. yay!!! wad i want to say about 2dae almost all updated by u liao. noting to update le. haha. monday probably watch charlie ok?

byebye

10:08 PM;
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Today went out with thiong hwee kor kor.. hehez~! late larz.. den see the little boi play drum poutside paragon.. den saw some cute cute things larz.. star wars mascot.. den i-pod and his buddy.. wahahaz~! bought song hua a boxers from calvin klein.. hurhur.. actually nothin much larz.. quite tired larz.. juz went orchard walk walk.. wanted to go find xing xing at raffles de.. in the end i changed my mind.. hmmm.. boring...
-Lulu

9:55 PM;
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somebody got angry with me ah? sorry lah. lately im veryvery down... dunno wad is happening around me. actually i noe wads happening but dont tink i noe how to handle it or rather i dont tink i can handle it...

im forced to put on a smile when im actually bleeding in de heart juz so that ppl wont find mi guai lan face n stuff n hoping dat my best fren will come back to me.. she left for no reason. its all so sudden. i feel damn hurt. i felt like dying. i found out 2 tings dat were critical in my life within 1 day. 1. ppl find my face n actions guai lan. 2. my best fren feels 'fan gan' towards mi. i wondered... whether it was a 2 way best fren friendship.. we used to be so good buddies.. pool buddy k-box buddy. used to do alot of stuff togeter. well this semester did drift apart abit. then it got worse n worse. or mayb she found new gd/best frens dat replaced mi.

im juz sososo sad... even tho i hav other frens arnd mi. losing her made mi very lonely. i feel so lonely. i feel so isolated. i started to feel dat every1 in sch detests mi. my class mates n de lecture gang dat i was wif where she is oso in it. perhaps they really detest mi. or mayb its juz my wild thots. at 1 point in time i tot 'mayb if i died wld b better?' end my miseries.. its so easy to die. jump out into oncoming traffic. open window den jump out. den i realised those thots wre childish. die liao so wad? end my miseries but den wad about my family? wad about other frens dat care?

i tink im going crazy. 1 min i cld b optimistic n b4 u noe it im pessimistic alr. i really hav no idea wad to do. the lecture grp gang i was in.. they weer all closer to her. ppl seem to be ignoring mi. leaving without saying 'bye'wen i was rite in front of them. n those dat i used to tok quite alot wif are now toking less. mayb the problem lies wif mi? mayb im the dats not toking to mi? mayb im de 1 dats become anti-social? i dunno. how i wish i was back in secondary school. im starting to hate poly life again. the feeling i've had in de beginning of de semester is coming back to me. i feel so left out. i wanna go back to sec school life. i wanna go back to 3E n 4E.

i really felt like crying on many occasions during this period of time. i did tear. not much tho. eyes watery in public wen i had to force a smile on my face even tho i was veryveyrvery down at dat moment. im starting to hate my life. NO. I HATE MY LIFE...

looking forward to meeting u later dear mei.

1:11 AM;
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Wah.. today went to skool.. den went orchard oso. den on the bus got bug attack us.. hahaz~! fly here and there.. den my frendz all started screaming.. hehez~! veri scary lorz.. the bug's life veri long larz.. lol.. den i went shopping around.. took neoprints.. den went home lorz... hmmm... so sianz... den tml should be goin out larz.. with thiong hwee kor kor lorz.. hehez~! =)

11:22 PM;
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Today went for sakura buffet with keng kee, kannan, meldon, firdaus and hafiz.. eat until veri full lorz.. cannot make it larz.. den we went to the beach to slack.. pasir ris larz.. took pictures.. kekez~! hmmm... den shared cab with kannan, keng kee and meldon.. wah.. meldon became so muscular.. he sat beside mi mahz.. so i leaned on him.. his arms.. hahaz~! comfortable larz.. hahaz~! not bad.. never lean before these kind de.. thanks buddy! still as handsome larz.. den hafiz oso more handsome le.. kekez~! quite bored larz.. tml still got skool...
-Lulu

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Friday, 19th August 2005
I went for a grad dinner with my frend.. ermm.. ok lorz.. not bad.. quite fun.. they people there veri funny larz.. hahaz~!
Saturday, 20th August 2005
Today went escape and song hua's chalet.. both quite fun larz.. got yee weon, alvin, joyce,mic, lisa jie n mi.. hahaz~! rain lo.. sian half.. next time must go again.. den song hua's chalet got jing yi, james, bernard, joel and mi... hahaz~! song hua damn childish lo.. not only his looks but his actions too.. hahaz~! like a boi boi like dat.. hahaz~! the way he eat, play and tok to his family.. hahaz~! quite bonded to his family lo.. lol.. den i brought song hua's phone back home. accidentally de.. feel so weird now.. can he come and collect now?? but he say tml lehz.. dunno lorz... at first say monday.. den i say dun want.. coz veri weird.. hahaz~! den should be tml lo.. er er... kekez~! pai seh arz..
-Lulu

12:58 AM;
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Hahaz~! today went to meet thiong hwee kor lo. go tampines together.. hahaz~! go check the earphone thingy.. lol.. in the end disappoint mi only.. haiz.. gotta go all the way to orchard.. hmmm... today handed in a project.. wah.. felt so relaxed.. saturday's programme quite pack.. ahahaz~! den still gotta shop for song hua's birthday present.. hmmm... den friday got dinner and dance lorz.. sianz.. tired larz... den today the LMS i learnt that we should not fear ghosts as long as we believe in our god... hahaz~! be it any religion. next week LMS last session le.. dunno whether we will contact one another again or notz.. haiz.. so bored.. hmm.. tired larz...
-Lulu

9:49 PM;
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Hahaz~! veri tired.. juz finish pia-in a project.. dunno how well will we score.. scared scared.. hahaz~! den left with one more to go den i free le.. hahaz~! so happy siaz.. haben't eat yet lehz... hungry larz.. got some errors with the project.. so gotta do some magic to make theses errors disappear.. hehez~! sianz sia... friday go dinner and dance.. hahaz~! should be wearin my white dress.. wah.. kan chiong arz.. never attend this kinda thing before with only a guy frend.. kekez~! hmmm.. hungry.. time to eat manz.. bro.. i free next week le.. only monday and tuesday not free.. coz got test.. hehez~!
-Lulu

12:19 AM;
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somebody want me to blog everyday. hahaha... noting much happened 2dae leh. okok. lets tok about wad happened in class 2dae. my tutor damn bo liao de leh. alwaes suan ppl for no reason altho sometimes funny lah. 2dae i wear my black cap to sch mah den juz adjust abit to make myself comfortable den he shoot mi in front of whole class... 'wah thiong! so relaxed ah? not doing work but adjust ur cap ah' -_-" sooner or later he gonna get into trouble wif my class man. haha.

oh n i juz finished watching incredible tales. kena tricked by the advertisement. the advertisement was quite creepy lah so i tot 2daes episode will be scary.... disappointed sia... in de end de only creepy part is de part shown in de advertisement. less than 1 min -_-". but the look n de stare on dat female 'you-know-what' reminded mi of my fren after de visit to de red house. the eye staring incident. told u b4 rite?

k lah 2dae not happening de. reach home at 4 den den slp wake up at 8 den makan. haha. den now slack. sianz (tink this should b at de top)

kk i go 1st

thiong

10:50 PM;
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today kenna shot down by dat stupid tutor.. give us wrong instruction den still malign us for doin wrongly.. WTH!!! duh!!! today macro test.. dunno will pass or not.. i hope i will.. veri tricky lo.. got one wrong liaoz.. sianz.. wah liewz... better dun fail worz.. my WCOM module today last tutorial le.. den next week got final test den nothing le. no more WCOM.. wait for the results.. pass den good lorz.. hahaz~! den no need retake next sem... sia la!! today mixed alot with joel they all.. den afte WCOM was with azreen they all.. they so cute de.. James so lame.. hahaz~! den got do project.. discuss who do what lorz.. til 7 plus den i reach home at 8.15.. luckily no jam.. if not i cry arz.. den today gastric lorz.. hahaz~! at home now got pizza hut.. yea yea!! =pPp
-Lulu

10:08 PM;
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wah... i spent 20 mins trying to get de pics into de blog. i swaku. haha. i was at marina watching fireworks too. but my marina n ur marina very far apart. marina square foodcourt balcny was where i was. haha. the fireworks was great. the size wasnt too big n wasnt too small juz right. realli enjoyed it.

was out wif mom dad sis n bro-in-law. wouldnt have watched de fireworks at de balcony if my dad wasnt hungry. -_-" lets tok about the dinner. fish head cury for dinner. WAH!!! spicy sia!!! downed 2 cups of lemon lime stil no use. ice kachang saved the day but the wait was very tormenting. my tongue was burning.

haha. tink im blogging crap ah. waiting for de fish to digest leh. stomach still feellike got alot of curry inside. hahaha. k lah shall stop here. until nxt time....

thiong

12:49 AM;
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Today went to watch fireworks.. hahaz~! with alvin, michelle and joyce.. at marina bay.. kekez~! beri nice... hmmm.. today last day le.. den after dat walked veri veri long den took cab lorz.. den can get a cab.. den jia liang sms-ed mi, i called kannan and thiong hwee kor called mi.. hmmm.. kannan was out with a gal larz... den today kor kor never bring mi go see fireworks lo.. is go myself de.. hahaz~! first time see people queue up to take mrt.. ._." hahaz~! scary rite? lolx...
-Lulu

11:58 PM;
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Kor kor.. it's not hokkien.. it's in teochew.. hahaz~! must continue bloggin arz.. cannot so lazy de.. okiez?
-Lulu

10:29 PM;
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heres my long awaited post. haha. as you know i found 'her' on 1st august. and guess it wad happened? it ended 6 days later <=X shan't elaborate about it here and lazy to type out also. well... there goes my 1st.

i watched 'The Maid' already!!! sneak preview at midnight with my mom sis n bro-in-law. the movie was great for me lah but dunno about others. haha. theres a good balance of spook and plot. the whole movie realli isnt very horror but it can still make u to jump out of your seat with its surprises. that happened to my mom who havent watched any modern horror movies before. haha.

juz to add a little spoiler. the 'you-know-what' will appear out of nowhere when u least expect it. it can even appear in broad day light. in one scene the lead character turns around after doing someting and 'BOO' the ghost 'pounces' on her. muz go watch. hahaha. towards the ending i tink not so frightening le coz will find out the truth n the truth is actually quite saddening. oh and the movie is spoken in a mixture of dialect(mostly hokkien) english and chinese(very little in the movie or mayb dont have. i dont remember) rmb to go watch. haha. its advisable to bring in ear plugs coz de music is damn creepy n loud especially de creaking old rusty metal doors.

alright enuff of de spoilers. not too much i hope. haha. sianz ah. exams coming le. haiz. n i juz failed my management accouts class test. as usual i failed the class test again. from sem 1 to now haven pass b4 sia. either its a curse or i didnt work hardenuff. haiz. but overall course work passed so i guess its ok. have to pia for the exam paper liao. study bnreak starts on 27 august. my papers on 5th,6th,7th,8th august with four papers 1 for each day. den after dat im free!!! wahaha. unless i fail my overall of a particular subj... CHOI!!!! otherwise have to take supplementary paper. i dowan dat. took it last semester. its so tiring.. take away my break time only. so i muz wrk hard. jia you!!! haha.

oyah n long john got promotion. haha. combo1 got 3 pieces of chicken instead of 2. haha.

k lah gtg do my research assignment le. -_-" dunno how to do sia. sianz

thiong

12:07 PM;
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It's my kor kor's birthday today.. hmmm. 22 years old le.. we had a chocolate wasabi cake.. err... it's actually not nice larz.. =pPp it taste weird lo... wat can u expect.. something sweet n bitter add with something spicy.... wah.. short of salty nia.. hahaz~! sooo bored larz... hmmm... today do PBL.. diffcult lorz... especially option 3 lorz.. wah.. do until faint manz.. somemore i only do part A.. didn't help them with other parts.. soo guilty.. haiz... still got business management project to do.. den gotta study for econs test.. tired larz.. haiz...
-Lulu

10:54 PM;
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*Scratch head.. I dunno how to do my project.. the most i can do ish to make it look nicer.. i dunno how to proceed le.. tml meetin them to finish it up.. gotta hand in by 13 aug, 11.59pm.. ._." throught mel.. sian... den still got business management project.. i haben't started too.. sianz.. dunno how to do too.. not beri sure how to do larz... haiz.. tml den do larz.. PBL.. difficult arz.. how how?? hmm.. so sianz.. someone's not bloggin.. so lazy.. brother.. blog lehz...
-Lulu

11:14 PM;
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So long never update dis blog oleadi.. why lehz? coz someone never blog lorz.. and who am i refering to? it's the other owner of this blog.. hmm.. today i went to watch fireworks again.. with my kor kor, michelle and my brother's frend... the fireworks were fabulous.. sooo pretty.. so nice.. hmm... huge.. gigantic.. so excitin.. hahaz~! hehez~! secret.. coz it's a secret place kor kor brought mi to watch it... yesterday i went tampines and saw canphylia, ginger, fengling, jeremy kong and daryl.. hahaz~! so coincidental.. hmm.. tml still gotta go skool.. so bored.. so long never hear jun jie's voice den yesterday i missed call him and he called back.. den heard his voice.. and today after i watched the fireworks.. i behaved like a child.. hahaz~! like so fascinated.. =pPp And yar.. happy birthday singapore.. =)
-Lulu

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These are some pics of fireworks festival 2005.. it's taken yesterday.. 6th august.. i went with mic, alvin, kannan and thiong hwee kor.. hmmm... i took mostly videos so i've got little pics.. hehez~! enjoy~! i think i'm goin on monday.. 8 th aug.. wanna join?
-Lulu

4:41 PM;
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Hmmm.. this is the most interesting thing dat happened to mi, so far for the day..
LMS..
we were havin a role play.. erm.. i was unlucky today.. open number i lose.. so have to go do the role play.. one per group.. den ji xian acted as the counsellor who was supposed to tok to mi. he was hired by my mum.. my mum is su yin. i acted as 19 year old gal, jane who ran away from home becoz my mum objected my relationship with my boifrend.. and she went to stay with her boifrend.. kai kai acted as my boifrend, alex.. 26 years old.. workin as a technician.. lol.. den ji xian counselled mi.. but i juz shot him back.. all lame reasons. still remember larz.. "got anything else to say? nothing else den i go off le." den ji xian replied, "cannot.. time's not up yet.. have one hour.." but i heck care and left.. dat's the attitude wat.. defiant girl mahz.. den later he toked to my mum.. my mum was supposed to be veri sad.. den she was complainin.. den he toked to kai kai.. den actually kai kai was supposed to like heck care mi de... but den suddenly change the script.. he became the good good wan larz.. "u doubt my faithfulness towards her?" that was the sentence i remembered.. den he veri heck care of wat the counsellor said.. play with his nils all those.. lol.. den last scene was we gathered together and toked as a group.. in the end i still dun wanna go back.. hahaz~! den mummy was tokin to mi.. den kept sayin my bf bad bad.. den i say, "u dunno anything u dun anyhow say. dun insult him.. he is my darling." den kai kai said," where got bad? i so good.. somemore so handsome.." den the whole class laughed.. den su yin was like. "i'm tokin to my daughter. i dun wanna tok to u.." lol.. so funy lorz.. den end le.. lol.. den what the young couple said was like veri smooth.. agree with each other.. lol.. actually got one more scene de.. but never act.. kai kai and i was supposed to act in one scene. i tok to him den he like bo chap larz.. not listening like dat larz.. lol.. actually this role playwas veri real.. it does happen in real life larz.. quite fun lorz.. got chance can play again larz.. lol.. now so bored~!
-Lulu

3:57 PM;
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wah 2nite very windy leh. doesnt lok like its gonna rain tho. weird. stress ah. 3 chapters only but my 3rdchap CMI. dont understand at all. DIE. i have nvr passed accounts class testb4. i wanna pass so dat i can sample someones cooking. hehheh.

this saturday donttink can make it leh. coz maybe need to go out with my mother. dont bother abt mi lah. u gofind some1 else to go wif first. haha. eh add mi ur fren in aquila leh. ahthiong. i forgot urnickliao. haha LY-someting issit? <=X

k lah back to my studying now. oyah n i cut my hair. omg return homeliao denrealsied very short.........

thiong

12:11 AM;
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Hmmm.. juz now was mapling.. den got to noe dis guy.. ermm.. i dunno his real name.. but he was veri kind.. he actually partied mi and helped mi level.. nice guy.. =) den he added mi on msn.. den i added him on friendster.. hahaz~! a guy with tatoos i suppose.. if i didn't see wrongly.. ok larz.. not too bad.. doesn't matter mahz.. got tatoos or not.. still human rite? can make frends mahz.. kekez~! brother.. blog lehz.. btw u saturday free? wanna go watch fireworks together? at esplanade.. want want? fireworks festival.. kekez~! 7pm.. lol..
-Lulu

9:31 PM;
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Wth!! Dat stupid tutor scolded me.. actually not scold larz.. it's nag larz.. just dat i printed the PBL thingy later den she say got time to do or not... sure not.. den nag like hell.. i bad mood le she still nag.. liaoz... den i saw the handsome senior larz.. tong.. hmm.. changed his hair colour and he cut his hair... coz it looked shorter.. i prefer his last time look lehz.. kekez~! =)hmmm.. so sianz... now in that tutor's tutorial.. boring!!! Hahaz~!
-Lulu

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