I guess this blog is deserted.. No one remember this blog... Just like how i'm abandoned here... No one wanting me... Helping me... Appreciate... I wonder how many times in my life did i ever hoped for appreciation... I think less then ten... I don't mind people misunderstanding me... Scolding me.... But what i mind was people taking me as a fool.. Making use of me...

People who used me to climb higher.. Get better things.. I dun mind.. But when they get what they want.. Do they appreciate it? I fought so hard for them... But where were they to come and continue growing the seedlings that sprouted for them? If they want me to continue looking after the seedlings, at least give mi some fertiliser or water.. How can i grow a plant big when i dun have enough fertiliser and water?

People avoiding me because they're scared of me? Hello... Firstly, have you done your part.. Not talking about whether they have done their part... First they said they were busy... So i dun go and bother them.. But when help is needed can i not make a phone call? Den now people stop answering calls.. What the hell are they avoiding.. Because they dunno how to answer the questions that i asked? Or are they guilty because they did not fulfil the tast of favour i asked of them.. Not because of a valid reasons but jus lame excuses? Dun want mi to misunderstand? Den at least give an explanation... If u're too busy to pick up the calls.. den at least call back?

People said they were busy.. Ok.. Treat it as i'm free..To remember what they said.. What they want.. Helping them to achieve what they want.. It takes 2 hands to clap.. If another hands not out to clap, den the other hand which is out already would have nothing to do. And one day.. The hand that didn't come out would find the hand obstructing... And push it away.. That's what happening now.. so guess what.. I'm taking back the hand... It's up to the other hand whether it wanna come out or not.. But if it ever sticks out.. I'll still grab hold of it.. For now... I'll just keep mine.. Afterall i can't always leave this hand with them and neglect the others...

So i wun quarrel with them again.. Let's just go out and have fun.. Let's not talk about work.. Talk about movies... Let's wait for them to talk about the work themselves.. Hmmm.. So i won't quarrel with the other group of people because of them...

-Lulu

12:08 AM;
I Lost My Way ToYOU

Actually i miss the life i used to lead... Coz can relax... Wanna sleep den sleep.. Can go shopping anytime... Study at the time i want... Do what i want and not so tiring and hectic.. Got a lot of friends to play with... Got the time to go eat whatever i like..

But now there isn't any for me... No realxing life.. Everyday is work and school.. Wanna go out shopping oso kenna pushed back.. Go for dinner dare oso have to cancel.. Haiz... Actually i can stop working le.. Coz i found the solution to my problem.. But i ain't givin up.. Coz i've come this far and i'm not going to say die...

Think of Mr Bear... I'm fighting hard.. Are you? I've gotta fight harder for Vin, Mic, Beloved, Lois, family & Mr Bear...

I wanna go shopping again...

-Lulu

12:01 AM;
I Lost My Way ToYOU