can moods be affected by the moon just like how the moon affects the tides?
sometimes i tink it does. but den again. if it does. den by right i should have mood swings. but den... i no mood swings leh. hmm. guess coz everyting is deep inside and not showing on the outside?
or is it actually just affecting my thots? or am i juz hiding the bad stuff in me wen there are ppl around me and den take out when im alone?
i dont like to show my moodiness on the outside when im with ppl. y dampen other ppl's mood? but sometimes i may juz look sian-ed when with some people.
issit their actions?
or am i juz tinking too much about their actions even when they arent doing it to mean aniting?
if its the latter... then im damn dumb lah. y tink so much n make myself suffer?
maybe because i learnt a painful lesson? not to let the smallest sign get away without my knowing. i've learnt to not give ppl 100% of my trust until they have earned it rightfully. even if they have that 100%.. i'll deduct marks juz for the slightest sign of abusing the trust...
why is my thinking so complicated now? i guess its a growing phase huh? everybodys gotta go thru it b4 growing? haiz. i have to learn to live life simple with all this stuff in my head. otherwise one of this days i will really juz break down n go crazy for tinking too much. or mayb split personality? or mayb juz... i dunno.. i dont noe wad im saying. -__-"
overall... i miss simple life. simple frens. simple ppl. simple secondary school days
lalalalalalalalalala
i have to remind myself to blog daily and make it a habit. 50cents is juz so ex lah. lol.
project due nxt week! 2day had a meeting. i guess we made progress? hopefully not in the wrong direction.
time flies. 4 more weeks exam le. and SIP will start around 6 or 7 weeks later? very soon poly life will be over. juz around another 6 months. after that will be the start of a new phase of life. i dunno if i'll be missing poly life after dat or happy dat its finally over. hahaha. i wonder... moments of torment more than moments of enjoyment. how sad.
Today was a day of thoughts.
-thiong-
